...är tydligen viktigt! Åtminstone om man ska lita på de testosteronstinna grabbarna på gymmet som hela tiden gapade på om att de kände pumpen. Själv gick jag ut rätt löst då det är ett bra tag sedan jag tränat. Fick göra uppehåll för några år sedan då jag drog på mig träningsskada i armen efter lyft och det uppehållet blev tyvärr permanent. Men nu är man på banan igen. Det känns dumt på något sätt att vara mer otränad än vad man behöver vara. Det är skönt att ha hyfsad kondis och en viss muskelmassa.

Sen hade jag också tänkt köra en liten diet. Jag vet så väl att man egentligen ska bulka när man tränar och det blir inte optimal muskelbyggnad osv men det är skitsamma. Ingen brådska, all träning är bra träning. Just nu ligger jag på drygt 80 kg och 74-75 kg känns mer rimligt för mig, då är jag nöjd med min kropp. Det blir kaloriunderskott rätt och slätt, jag tror inte mycket på modedieterna. Räknar med att gå ner ca 0,5 kg i veckan så blir jag klar till hösten.

Så är det! Och på lördag ska jag på dejt. Jag och Gabriela som den portugisiska tjejen heter har messat och hörts på telefon rätt flitigt medan hon varit i Göteborg. Vi sa ju att vi skulle styra upp något när hon kom hem men nu bara för en stund sedan undrade hon om jag ville komma över till henne på lördag. Och det klart att jag ville. Har absolut ingen aning om vad hon planerat! Så det blir en överraskning. Men ja nu känner jag att det är min tur att ta initiativ så vi får väl se vad som händer... lovar en uppdatering om det    Hon skickade förresten en otroligt söt bild på sig själv förut som jag tittar på sådär en gång i timmen. Då vet man att det börjar bli illa ställt. Jag brukar inte fastna så snabbt för människor. Kanske är det att vi har så lätt för att prata med varandra och har mycket gemensamt.
 Jag vill nog säga att jag är en rätt god människokännare och det här är en bra tjej, det märks.

Nu tänkte jag ta en kvällspromenad och sen ska jag montera ihop och sätta upp mitt nya trädgårdsbord på balkongen. Jag tänkte slänga upp en ny omröstning också så rösta gärna!

Jag har länge haft några olika historier jag har velat sätta på pränt. Blir så sällan av att jag skriver fiktiva berättelser numera. Så jag tänkte jag skulle ge mig på det under ledigheten och posta en jag börjat skriva på här på bloggen i delar. Delarna kommer komma allt eftersom jag har tid och lust att skriva. Just det här är en fantasy historia och det är första gången jag skriver fantasy så vi får se hur resultatet blir. Temat är kärlek vilket väl kan passa på den här bloggen. Jag har valt att skriva på engelska då jag gärna vill hålla liv i mina språkkunskaper. Det är för mig avkopplande och ett nöje att skriva, kanske finns det någon som tycker det är roligt/intressant att läsa det också och det är ju isåfall en trevlig bonus.

Hazard

Part I

Sean is a young man living in the city & running his own business. Life is good and when he meets Sarah and a mutual attraction develops, it seems as if he has got everything he could ever ask for. It does however not take long before he starts to realize something is off about her. Without realizing it he is embarking on a journey that will change his perception of reality forever and ultimately face him with a lifechanging decision.

It was nearly midnight when Sean finally finished the last of his paperwork. He yawned as he strolled off towards the bathroom to take a quick shower before bed. Although he was not keen on admitting it, running your own business does come with certain drawbacks. Always bringing work home with him was one of them. Still he greatly appreciated the freedom it offered and the possibility to take a day off whenever he wanted to. Being 25 he had far from settled down and it fitted his lifestyle nicely.

The warm streams of water felt good on his skin and his tense muscles slowly started to unwind and relax.  If only the headache would go away he thought to himself. He had been having these migraine like headaches coming and going for the past few months and they were usually accompanied by sleeplessness and chills emerging throughout his body. The doctor had found nothing wrong when he went to have it checked up and just prescribed some painkillers and a sleeping aid. He tried to determine when they had started. He was fairly certain it had been about a month ago cause he remembered going with Sarah to that concert a few nights before.

His thoughts instantly switched to her instead and he felt the slightest tingle in his stomach and an ever so pleasant feeling within. They had been seeing each other for a while now and though they were not truly going steady yet, he could definitely see himself being with her. She was an adorable girl who shared his interest for music and films. She was funny, clever and most certainly beautiful with her luscious blonde hair, green eyes and that playful smile of hers.

For a moment as he stepped out of the shower he wondered if he should call her. But given the late hour she was probably asleep and he did not wish to disturb her. Instead he dried himself up with a towel and then went straight to bed. There he lied wide awake for at least a good hour before he finally started drifting off.

The second time the alarm went off he quickly got out of bed. Second alarm meant only 20 minutes until he had to be at the store in order to get things prepared for the 10 o'clock opening. He put on some water for his coffee and then rushed to the bathroom. Brushed his teeth and styled his short brown hair nicely. The stubble on his face looked well enough so it needed no trimming and once he had gulped down a hot cup of coffee and eaten a sandwich he locked the door and hurried out of the building towards the bus stop. The store was just a few minutes away by bus and normally he would walk but today he was running late and could not afford to waste any time.

Once the bus came he got on it and stood up during the trip for it was crowded as it always was at this time of the day. Minutes later he got off it and walked up the street to his store. It wasn't very big and it was squeezed in between a fashion clothes store and Starbucks but yet he always got this distinct feeling of pride when he saw it. It was his very own and though he was not making large amounts of money from it, he still got around. He had specialized himself in selling computers and various other tech items and gadgets.

Competing price wise with the major stores was obviously not possible so instead he had made it his goal to provide excellent customer service. He offered free installations/configurations, had a generous refund policy and always wore a radiant smile with his polite manners when dealing with people.  Word most certainly seemed to be out on the street as he had a small but steady stream of customers coming in to browse the store.

10 o'clock he unlocked the front door and proceeded with tagging some new items. He looked up as he saw a man in his 40ies walk in and greeted him.

-Yeah so I'm looking for a laptop I can use Facebook on and watch videos the man said. You know, nothing fancy, the usual stuff. But these schmuks down at E-Dex tried to set me up with this laptop for 1500 bucks. Kept claiming I need a lot of power and good graphics and whatnot.

Sean nodded and waited for the man to go on.

-Anyways I had a friend buying a pc here and he said he got a good deal for a lot less money. So what's your take on it, do I really need to shed out thousands of bucks the man asked and stared at him.
-No said Sean and smiled. I should say that for your requirements $500 or so would get you what you need. In fact I have a model right here you might find appropiate, let me show you.

Ten minutes later the man had left the store with his brand new laptop and Sean had noted yet another sale in his registry. It was almost too easy. Everyday he had people coming in sick and tired of the greedy and unhelpful sales people at the larger stores only to walk off happily with what they had been looking for. They say honesty doesn't pay off he thought to himself but in this case it certainly does.

At 1 o'clock he was getting ready for a late lunch when an elderly woman walked in and required some assistance with a smartphone she had bought some days earlier from him. He was just trying to pinpoint the problem when the door opened again. He looked up and to his surprise it was Sarah that had entered the store. She smiled at him and walked up so she stood next in line behind the old lady.  Suddenly he found it very difficult to concentrate at the task at hand and eventually told the woman he had to run a diagnosis on the phone and that she could come back in a few hours to pick it up. She turned around and left while Sarah walked up to the desk. She was wearing a black dress and had her blonde hair flowing unrestrained.

-Hey handsome she said. Keeping yourself busy I see
-Yeah there's been a lot of folks in here today. So what can I help you with young lady Sean smiled at her
-Oh I just wanted to stop by, see if there's anything I like in here.
-And did you find anything?
-Uhu she nodded and bit her lip

He leaned forward over the desk and they kissed.

-Well now that you're here he said, wanna grab lunch together?
-Sure. Where are we going?
-I was thinking pizza he said. They have a nice place near the park where we can sit outside if you'd like to.
-Sounds lovely she smiled
-Alright let me just close up here and we'll be on our way he said and grabbed his bag

They made their way out of the store and he locked the door before they started walking towards the pizza place.  He admired her as she walked. Every single one of her movements had such a grace to them. Not in a snotty uptight way but rather in a very relaxed and feminine one. She caught him as he started falling behind with his eyes fixated on her ass.  She started laughing and then he was laughing too and it was all good fun.

A moment later they were parked in the sun at a small table waiting for their food to be served. It took quite some time but it did not bother him. It only meant more time to talk, laugh and taste those yummy red lips of hers.  For a few weeks time now he had felt that this was it and tried to come closer to her. He would ask her out every now and then. When she spent the night at his place he would encourage her to stick around the day after. He had gotten her some rather thoughtful gifts. He had even invited her to a dinner with his parents to show her he was serious with his intentions.

And yet he sometimes felt as if she was holding back. Sometimes when she turned down seeing him he had an unexplainable feeling of unknown origin that the excuses were made up. And while she was very warm and emotional at times, truly displaying her affection for him, yet other times she was rather chilly and did not say very much. It confused and bothered him a bit. Even though he would hate to ruin such a lovely and sunny afternoon, he decided it was time to bring up that particular subject once they had gotten through their meal.

-So Sarah he begun and looked her in the eyes. I'm not really sure how to say this.. is everything alright with you? You've acted a little strange as of lately.
-Yes everything is fine she replied. What makes you ask that?
-I dunno he said and looked away at the park, watching some kids playing near the water fountain.
You just seem a bit distant at times he continued. I mean sometimes I feel like we're really hitting it off but other times you're not very keen on even seeing me.

-Of course I wanna see you. It's just that.. oh never mind.
-No what was it you were going to say?

She did not respond immediately. Watching her it occured to him how all of a sudden all the joy and playfulness had  vanished from her face.

-I don't want to talk about it she frowned at him. Can't we just enjoy the time we spend together?
-Yeah of course he said. I just.. I just like you a lot you know. I want you to know that.
-I know she said in a lower voice. And I like you too baby. I really do. But please just let it be for now. Okay?

Sean nodded but said nothing and they remained quiet for a while before they started chattering about a movie they both wanted to see.  Though he did not speak of it again, her reaction puzzled him and he wondered what was up with her. Eventually they both needed to get back to their jobs and as they said bye Sarah gave him a long wet kiss and also wanted a tight hug before she left.

The remaining part of the day he could not help to ponder on their previous conversation while he engaged in mundane job related tasks. He felt happy they had gotten to see each other but also very confused. He eventually managed to fix the smartphone that had been handed in earlier and the old lady was most thankful as she came to pick it up.

When it was nearly 5 o'clock he started preparing to close up and go home. He went into the backroom to get some papers as he suddenly heard a noise from within the store. Thinking it was a last minute customer he went back into the store and just as he entered it he saw a woman exiting the door and hurrying to the left down the street. She was covering the side of her face using her hand and assuming it was a shoplifter he was just about to go running after her when he saw a note on the desk. He took the time to grab it and read it.

"She's not who you think she is. Wanna know more? Call this number 0292983239."

He rushed outside to catch up with the woman but as he looked down the street, she was nowhere to be seen. A quick inventory also revealed that nothing had been stolen from his store. He re-read the note several times with utter bewilderment written all over his face. Who was this "she" the note was refering to? For reasons he did not know he had a feeling it was Sarah. As he closed up and made his way home he became more and more certain it was indeed Sarah it was refering to. But then who was the woman who had dropped it off and what was the meaning of it all?

It bothered him and as he sunk down in the sofa he was tempted to call the number specified. Yet he did not. He had to think it carefully through first. Besides he was pleasantly tired and not sure he wanted to deal with it right now. Evenings such as this one without that awful headache he would often experience had to be treasured. A nap will do me good he thought. Yes.. a nap. He closed his eyes and before he knew it he was sound asleep.